Most people call me Olivia. It is a name that was given to me by my adoptive parents 17 years ago. It is my real name and it is found on all official documents. Olivia means peace and it originates from the Latin language. But Olivia is not the name that was first given to me. I was born under the name Quing Zhu and it means "celebration".
Olivia is a part of who I am. I guess I would consider myself peaceful. A person who strives for balance in her life. Minimal conflict. But I do not feel like I can relate to "celebration". Sure, I like the occasional party and am definitely a lover of cake but I don't celebrate life. But why not?
And that is why I named my blog, Quing Zhu. For so long, I struggled with naming it. I wanted my blog to represent someone who I am now and who I will become in the future.
Did I want to focus on my itty bitty self, you know, the 4'10" cutesy girl that I am? But that idea soon burned out when I realized that so much of myself is trying to prove that I'm more than what my limiting height offers. I didn't want my cuteness to stand in the way of something even larger.
Then I went with things that I loved. Pieces of clothing that I thought gave me a mark and made me stand out from the rest of the world. A signature. Things from Bows and Berets were ideas I sat on for a couple of weeks. But each time, I knew that I was something more than just objects. I knew I needed something timeless.
The idea struck me in the shower because all great ideas come while in there. Why don't I name my blog after my own name? Of course, Olivia seemed too common. But Quing Zhu was different. Short but with such a beautiful ring to it.
While I may not be such a celebrating kinda gal, I definitely want to be. So maybe in the future and through this blog, celebration- of my life and everyone else's- will become a part of who I am.
That's is what I hope to achieve through this blog! So welcome to Quing Zhu and come celebrate with me.
Love, Olivia
